It's hard to believe that the first month of 2014 is coming to a close. It feels like forever since Christmas..but it's still hard to believe that February will be here before we know it. I look forward to February - its a big milestone for Jake and I. Starting Feb. 2nd, we start our milestones - from becoming friends that hang out to first hugs, kisses, and dates :) February was a big month last year, and its fun to think that Jacob Evans has been in my life for almost an entire year. So...I look forward to our celebrating - I always love reminiscing with Jake about the start of our lives together, and I'm sure we'll have more fun talking about it as the anniversaries begin.
I swear, each day, and week, and month that goes by, we hit reality harder and harder...the frustrations of starting out...minimum wage- paying jobs, student loans, not receiving government help...the list goes on...but...I am learning SO much. It's a very humbling process, and despite it all - I get the constant reminder of how much the Lord cares...I am the first to admit that I don't give enough time to Him as I should...I get caught up in the day to day tasks...and always seem to find 'stuff' to do, before getting on my knees or opening my scriptures...and yet the Lord reminds me every day of how much....He loves me...in so many ways...from the roof over my head, to messages and phone calls from my family...jokes or pictures that make me laugh...a good tv show...or even just a decent meal...but the one thing that surpasses them all...Is having the companionship of my eternal sweetheart.
Jake is more than I could have ever imagined, or asked for. It has hit me hard a few times this month, of how perfect the Lord's plan for my life was to prepare me to wait and meet Jake. Years and years of preparation. If I hadn't moved into the Riviera with Kristen my sophomore year of BYU, we wouldn't have met Shani. Shani connected Kris and I with jobs at BYU Independent Study, and later, myself with Heritage Makers. I had to get that job at Heritage Makers to meet Megs. Megs had to work there so that we could become friends before my mission. My mission was a gift - and helped me become more of who I am...and see what I can become. Collette and Megs still had to work at Heritage Makers, and Shani had to have connections there still as well, to allow the doors to be opened to working there again after the mission. Megs had to move apartments and have an open room for me to move in with her. I had to go with my gut and make that decision on a whim...and it was a decision that changed my life forever. Jake would move in next door just a few months later, and enter into my life..finally! not to mention all that the Lord had to do to get Jake to that point....I am so...in awe....by how perfect it all is...and how He cares enough about me to put the stepping stones in order to lead me to my eternal companion.
Not only has he become my best friend, but he is truly a part of me...and I of him...He carries me through the hard days, he lifts me up when I am down...he laughs along side me when I laugh...his smiles are sincere, his heart is so giving and always there for me...He forgives, he learns, he loves...he is...my everything. I love being in love. He is the only man I have truly been in love with. The only man to tell me that he loved me. And I cherish that I got to hear those words for the first time, from my husband. Love means so much to me now, more than I ever knew.
I love what marriage stands for. I love those that cherish it as well. I love that he and I waited for each other...I love that we have so much ahead of us. I am so grateful for the reminder that he is to me...that the Lord has cared for me...and still cares for me. And that I am enough....I need to remember that a lot more often.
Life is good. And I want to focus on that more this year. Remember the good, and pushing through the bad, and serving those around me. How grateful I am to have a testimony that God lives, that His son, Jesus Christ, is our Redeemer. And that through Him, we can all be happy forever. How simple it all is. How grateful I am for the power and peace that gives me. <3 about...let="" all="" forget="" is="" it="" nbsp="" not="" ove="" p="" s="" that.="" what="">
Ps. I LOVE to see that there are people in the world that stand up for what they feel is right. Former Bachelor, Sean and his fiance Catherine, are getting married this weekend on ABC...and I love how they have waited to have sexual relations, or live together, til after they are married. It shocks the 'world', but I was truly uplifted by hearing it. It makes me so happy to know that people follow what they feel is right, an eternal principle...Love it!...and I can't wait to watch the wedding :)
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